Today I was on the verge.
The verge of suicide.
I wrote my note.
I looked for the gun –
It wasn’t there.
Luck?
I’ll never know.
It was the calmest I’ve been in a while and even I commented such, out loud.
My guardians, I called upon.
One by name.
A decision was made
No bother to reach out.
Attention is all that would stand to gain.
I sent my I Love You’s to the four that matter.
“None of this fuck’n matters“
Replays over and over in my head.
The realization that I’ve played a role, one assigned to me, is a harsh reality.
Why wouldn’t they give me a glamorous one?
There is no time for blame.
Ironically, those who ask
“What’s wrong“
are the ones that aren’t ready to see their part in your shame.
Expectations to be a no-body carries a weight.
One that I must shake,
For my life is at stake.

Glad you’re here, Candace.
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Thanks, Heather.
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I’m glad you chose life! Sending you healing vibes 🧡
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I’m glad you decided to stay. 🌻❤️🌷
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The world needs you!!
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Sending good thoughts your way. 💕
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